Cancer comes with some blessings!
I go through my second colonoscopy in 8 days. It goes better than the first, they are able to see more of the colon. I find out the cancer has not gotten into my bladder or other nearby organs-more good news. The doc removes a polyp. There are two more polyps by the tumor, but they will stay where they are for now.
I listen to my healing meditations and practice deep breathing. I read Joel Olsteen, especially I Declare: 31 Promises to Speak Over Your Life I work hard to be positive.
I am amazed at the support I receive from friends and family. I am very blessed to have these people in my life and in many ways I have taken them for granted. I treasure the moments that I am able to spend with loved ones and cut down on outside responsibilities. Yes, I am tired a lot, but I was fatigued before they found the cancer. Nothing has really changed, but now I understand that there is a physical reason for the fatigue and I forgive myself and rest as needed.
I think a lot about the blessings I have in my life, all the reasons I have to beat this damn cancer. I am ready to put on my boxing gloves, but I don’t have a specific battle plan yet. Waiting is frustrating. I have another doctor’s appointment in 8 days and I am hoping we will get our plan finalized then. I know that I will need radiation and chemo, followed by rest and surgery, followed by just chemo. It sounds like I will be able to do that final chemo at home! YAY! I am so thankful for the new cancer drugs, which I understand have fewer side effects. I’ve got my eye on a rainbow hair wig, just in case. I was wanting to dye my hair in the colors of the rainbow when I went all the way grey, anyway.
So, this is a wake up call for me. For the next few months, I will fight the battle I need to fight. When I win, I am going to start doing the things that really matter to me and stop putting them off for another day. I have a feeling that will involve less work, more family time, and more active fun outdoors! I am so looking forward to the coming victory!